D O W N

It is never a pleasure to give up for something and end up for nothing. But I think I am just fine, for I know I am used to it.
I am sitting next to my bed and waiting for a call, and then I cry to sleep, a thing I loved to do in the night. It won’t hurt me anyway or break my bonds. It is absolutely a secret way of figuring out a pain, though I don’t know whether somebody has ever hurt me or not.
Why on earth people get hurt if no one hurts them? And how then could I feel this kind of pain? Yesterday I felt it was like a sickness, and today I think it is madness.

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Laburnums

I had no strength to control my mood; didn’t know what to do to make my heart’s stuff right. So then I took a walk up the hill to find some cheeriness. I saw a child holding a black pot and pouring some water down on his Laburnums. I got confused. How could he got his Laburnums grow in contrast? They grew beautifully with different yellow intensities. But then they couldn’t grow up together, for the pot space was made only for single Laburnum. The child was full of anguish. He knew he couldn’t keep all his Laburnums alive. He had to do something. He chose the brightest one to survive in his pot and pulled out the other ones. What an ironic I thought. One by one, the Laburnums fell down to the ground. I couldn’t understand why that child had no need to replant them all even on the ground he stepped on. Were they too bad to live a longer life? That walk showed me what life was like. Life was a competition which sometimes seemed cruel and uneven. We could fight for our own goodness or we might live defenselessly like a myrmidon, or we might have destined for it.

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My Evils

1^st evil: Lonezu

I am the one who loves solitude very much. I won’t be mad at somebody who touches my lovely solitude, I’m just gonna be hurt.

2^nd evil: Glor

I am the one who doesn’t really like second place, yet I’m not sure that it costs me ‘the ambitious of number one to be’, cause I’m not that bad, I know well how ‘thanks’ worth it.

3^rd evil: Rightor

I am kinda hard to make any sense of flattery, for I always think I am a good analyzer. The worst thing is when I heard an unreasonable reason coming out from someone’s lips. This evil must be insisting me to drag you out of my respectful zone.

4^th evil: Prejudixas

Somehow I perceive that I know people just by checking around them. Then I tend to open myself to them, whom I think are good, and to them, who are hard to figure out.

5^th evil: Hideas

I never say briefly everything I wanna tell, I do that only when I'm in a must. That’s why I think I am such a believer of someone’s ability in understanding me through every single word drained from my lips and my hand.

P. S.: you will find all of those evils only in this page and in me.